Wednesday, March 30, 2016

When You Feel the Sting


Easter week has passed.  It is the time, for the church, when we rejoice in the resurrection.  When we once again remember the sacrifice made for us and the joy that now awaits because of it.  We typically hear a lot during this week about death's defeat and the overcoming of the grave.  We sing, we hope, we lift our eyes to heaven, and...sometimes, we hurt in the middle of it all.  And we wonder what comes next.

'O death, where is your sting?'  The truth of the matter is that on this side of heaven, death does sting. Sometimes it stings until it knocks you down.  Where we stand now, on the dim side of the mirror, is painful and beautiful all at once.  There are times when just the beautiful would be quite sufficient. But the pain seeps through and meets us like an unwelcome visitor. It is part of our path, part of the making of who we are meant to be.  And so we face it, but we feel it, too. That's the part that is sometimes hard for us to talk about--feeling the sting.  It's so much easier to post the cleverly illustrated Bible verse or say, "I'm fine, and you?" as we walk away and let tears fall in our quiet moments.  For some reason, it does not usually feel acceptable to say we aren't ok.  That gets messy. People don't enjoy it. So we hide.  I'm not sure why we are afraid of the reality of walking out our faith.  If we're honest, now and then most of us are tired and a little unsure of things.  When Jesus appeared after He had risen, He spoke peace to His disciples.  "Peace to you," He said.  If He knew they needed His peace, I feel certain He knew that we would, too.  The world may look different at the point in time where we find ourselves, but our hearts still need His peace.

'O hell, where is your victory?' Some days we look around us at the weary world and are hard-pressed to see a great deal of victory.  Instead, we see a lot of darkness and fighting and hard things and just plain scary stuff.  The day-to-day presents its own set of  issues.  We struggle in our search for what is true and where we fit within it.  And so we have to go back to the beginning of remembering.  We have to choose to step into the light.

'O Church, come stand in the light.'  This begins the work.  Often we forget that there is a working of the gospel, but we do have a task to carry out.  When we see injustice, we  have to continue to stand in the light.  When those we love crack and break and our own hearts are split wide open, we sometimes want to creep back into the shadows.  But we can't.  If we truly believe that 'the glory of God has defeated the night,' then when we find ourselves in the pitch black of midnight we have to decide to hold on until morning.  It always arrives.  Sometimes the hours just drag on more slowly than others, but the result is the same.  Daylight breaks; morning comes; mercies are new.

So if you find yourself feeling a bit tattered and worse-for-wear on your journey, know you are not alone.  We are supposed to be the Church--collectively walking together in spite of ourselves.  We are meant to keep each other in the light--to point each other back to the One who has overcome.  So that in the end, we can remember how to rejoice.

Wednesday, February 24, 2016

Finding Hope in the Waiting

As an update on where we are, we are...waiting.  It's a bit unnecessary to say we have had our share of practice with this virtue of patience already.  In simple terms, the orphanage would like a particular document which is currently on someone's desk 'being processed.'  Once they get this, they will release the referral and things will start happening.  This is fine.  Really, it is.  It will be done soon, and we can move forward.   But it seems like a delay just when you felt yourself building some momentum.  We hold tightly to the knowledge that God is not surprised.  I remind myself that He knows exactly when we need to be there and exactly when she will be coming home.  The knowing that she is there waiting for us, though, is the difficult part of this wait.  Until now, we were just waiting for an unknown hope and prayer.  Now that hope is real.  She's growing a little each day, she's changing, she's learning new things, and we don't want to miss any more of it!  There are some things that are good about this time.  We are able to get things ready--to paint her room, to decide where things go, to reflect on this season ahead of us.  I am thankful for those things.  But I am also ready for the wait to be over.

Many have asked if we need anything or what they can do to help.  You can pray!

Pray that the officer working on our file would have mercy upon us and our I-800A (fancy term for important piece of paper) would be processed and sent to us quickly.  I'm pretty sure he is tired of Victor calling him, so I'm hoping he's tired enough to approve the file!

Pray for our sweet girl who is waiting for us.  Pray for us as we prepare for her.

Pray for the place we will stay while we are in-country.  We get to choose it, and we want to choose well since we will be there for a few weeks.

Pray for our finances, that each need will be met--even the needs we don't know about yet!

Pray that God will grant us wisdom for the days ahead and that we will not feel discouraged.  There is hope at the end of the waiting; it's just getting there that sometimes feels long.

Thank you for loving our family.  Hopefully soon we will be sharing travel plans!